recently i came off some pills. while I came out of the withdrawal symptoms intact, I still have issues with sleep. and that lack of sleep stems from insomnia which walks hand in hand with generalized anxiety disorder and various forms of depression. throw that all in the gumbo with a dash of ocd and paranoia and you got yours truly.
i’ve been the one to not be able to fall asleep without a klonny and then wake up an hour later with my eyes bugged out of my head while I stare at the ceiling doing anything i could do to get out of my mind. thankfully i’ve been able to fall asleep without issue lately… the years i couldn’t fall asleep were brutal.
I’ve been the guy that wakes up at 12:48am and gets ready for the day like everything is normal. bruhhh… that is really like some patrick bateman type stuff. Insomnia isn’t easy to treat. Everybody is different too which makes it even more challenging. The early morning struggles are rough… that 2am – 4am window is wild. If you averaged my wake up time the past 2 months it would probably be 2:22am. While I’d love to just go to the living room and melt into the couch and watch tv, I’m just not wired like that. our small apartment is one thousand square feet tops so me watching tv fifteen feet from where my family sleeps isn’t a viable solution. i go out in the garage are walking in the streets so the people inside this home don’t know i’m too crazy.
I work in my garage… sure I own a lot of cool collectables but at the end of the day… I’m working in my garage. I’m in a box… there’s no airflow… I have no reception. But we pay 3200 for a 2 bedroom in an area of San Diego where I can whip around wherever needed with the quickness. So if I handle all of my main hustle stuff starting at 5am, what is a playa to do between 2am – 5am? I grab my black and gold bose wireless headphones and I start walking the parking lot of my apartment complex. Nobody is outside… it’s a ghost town…
In mid-may, I came off my klonnies cold turkey. But the timing of trent, crispy, fash, t.a. and trap coming into my life through their music was heaven scent.
my early mornings quickly got filled with listening to new music every morning. Since that landmark day in may, I haven’t gone more than 3 days without having a new track to peep. producers like trent, alc, evidence, nuglife, and wiardon have given me nothing but fire beats to peep while I walk these empty roads at three:sixteen am. while I love rap as a genre, i’m a beat head. I have a good ear for that knock… that slump… that vibe.
what i love about hip hop now is that it doesn’t matter where an artist is from. if you’re dope, you’re dope. there are a lot of rappers out now where i see their name and i don’t care to research more about them… i just tap into their station for a bit, like a few songs, add some to my playlists and then it’s on like donkey kong.
i remember looking up where navy blue was from one time and i just got confused… dude is everywhere and not confined to one place. you can’t house some of these artists’ styles and i love it. bend that creativity and be innovative.
and if it doesn’t matter where an artist is from, does it really matter what year a song came out if you never heard it… nope… if we’re talking coke rap, i’m going right here.
mach hommy is crazy with it too… yall into mach?
what about wiki? you gotta bump at least one or two wiki tracks right??? please… don’t tell me you don’t know wiki… seafood sam? wait… you sleeping on sam too??? nooooo!!!
sometimes you need a little good life cafe and project blowed type shit to flex out those vocal chords and cadences.
but fam… this new track empty roads is crazy… it’s mixing that art rap slash coke rap slash lofi funk with some straight psychedelics in the mix. producertrenttaylor did his thing on the gold mpc here. and the lyricists?? whooooooooo… fashawn out of fresno, odessa kane from san diego, and scarub from los angeles. bump this loudddddddddddddddddddddd….